It is with such deep grief and despair that I ask for your prayers… over my heart and my life. This last year has been one of the darkest and most hurtful I’ve experienced. The details can be summed up by saying my relationship with God took the passenger seat… I had a false sense of comfortability with being in a familiar territory. I let my guard down in so many areas and today am writing with much sorrow, under the influence of hopelessness. It’s as if I’m watching myself go through the motions of life, but another spirit is in control. Darkness surrounds me, anguish roars through my soul as my heart feels penetrated by a venomous poison. I feel an evil spirit so close to me and yet I cannot call this demon out by name. Where is he hiding? Why is God allowing this? I have been on my knees throughout this year, but my ear seems to have gone deaf to the direction He may have been calling me. I have no one ‘doing life’ with me here; thus I’ve been bearing this burden alone. I need intercession from the feet who carry his good news… I’m crying out for His hand to lead me once again.