Isn’t it amazing the depths we go to in our lives to find the fullness that God created in us and yet one day we wake up to find that over time, we have sacrificially let ourselves deteriorate to a stripped away version of all we worked so hard for? I have a lot of turmoil surrounding my place in life and I’m searching for the fork in the road where I took a left instead of a right. I’ve been reading in Proverbs that when we cry out for understanding and wisdom, God will give it to those who are faithful. Have I not been faithful? Have I not given every ounce of blood in me to better the lives of everyone else? Then should I not have more conclusions than question marks?

Perhaps all that God has for me is too much to handle… maybe it’d just blow my mind if He gave it all up at once. With my lack of patience, I’d probably attempt a fasttrack to the end, leaving behind all those lessons I need to get there. So all I’m asking for is discernment. I don’t want a spoiler alert, just discretion and discernment to get back where this all went wrong and take a right when I want to take a left.